mums helping mums


mums helping mums
This morning, tears flowed out on the thin film over my eyeballs and then dripped onto my cheeks. I wanted JJ to sleep so he could be his bubbly self throughout the day.  Obviously the selfish part was I wanted a snooze, or a small break.  I’ve been up since 440am rocking his heavy body to go back to sleep with my arms aching.  Then came nap time, and JJ was screaming to go to sleep but he kept arching himself going crazy, throwing his arms and legs everywhere.  So I continued with the gentle rocking and finally, the little monster turned into an angel sleeping.

All mums (and dads), go through a whirl wind of emotions such as above, extreme fatigue, unbelievable multi-tasking, and nonstop organising.  A never ending unpaid job! We all get hell days or even minutes which can seem everlasting. So a little help from other mums is a welcome! From a mum to another, every small gesture goes a long way, so maybe some items that can be borrowed, a playdate arranged, advice given or a smile from afar.

From other mums; my mum, cousin, friends, NCT group and Babycentre group have all lent me a handful of items.  From sleepyhead, Moses basket, sterilisers, clothes, toys, seats and books; all these items add up.  I’ve also received used clothes but in great condition! Absolutely amazing!  For little babies, clothing and items can be so ridiculously priced! Items for Sale in the local area on Facebook groups is money saving! I’ve bought loads from there.

The time has come, and I get to pass items on.  Maybe they will return once I have another child but that will be quite some time!  Ahahaha! This was a huge box and I don’t think the receiver was expecting this much goodies!  I think it came to around £400 worth of mummy and baby stuff! WOW!


Share the love and help where you can.




baptising Joshua

Baptising Joshua

baptising Joshua


The Catholic Church recommends babies to be baptised within a few weeks of birth.  It’s also pushed within the Filipino community.   However, due to the circumstances of the first few months after Joshua’s birth it was not something I could comprehend, especially as Martin and I are both not practicing any faith.  I have complete respect for those that follow any religious faith and have sincerest admiration for those that practice their beliefs.  However, there has been so many opposition questions that I have faced, wondered myself and certain aspects within my life that makes me choose not be a practicing Catholic. Does this make me a hypocrite? Probably so?  Nevertheless, being brought up with Catholicism has provided the great values within me that I would want to bestow onto Joshua.  It is not so much about the belief of a God, sacraments and rituals but providing the love to show upon another, to be kind to a neighbour, to have morals and be strong willed.   I would love Joshua to be mindful of all religions and respect their ideology.  With that in mind, we as parents prepare Joshua for his welcome into the Christian community.  It is not just us as parents that Joshua will follow and learn from, but his extended family, his friends, colleagues and his Godparents.  Where I’m trying to go with this is, with an excuse for a party as well, this baptism brings both Martins and I important people in our lives together, family and friends.  Unfortunately, this is not an often occurrence.  This means the world to me, that we can have everyone we dearly love together sharing the joy of our son.

baptising joshua

Thank you to mum, who has contributed to this celebration, to our family far and local who attended and our dearest friends. Thank you for the hard work,  Eclektik Design – your decorations were amazing! Lola Catering for delicious food.  Mimi’s Munchkins for the balloon modelling, Aira for the photographs  and Old Rut Rugby Club for the venue and St Josephs Church for the baptising of Joshua.

A reflection on being mummy these last 5 months.

How has the first few months of motherhood been for you?

My idealistic and nurturing ways of being a mummy to JJ whilst also maintaining me were set whilst growing him in my belly.  Nearly all of them had gone to pot!  I’ve had to adapt and be super flexible.

  • Breastfeeding cover. I thought I’d save my dignity and hide those buns away from the public eye by using a cover.  I’ve given up now using them.  I’m either hiding myself under them trying to assist JJ .  Or it’s a distraction or just annoying and in the way.  If I need to, then a muslin tucked under the bra strap is the trick which aids in cleaning up any messiness.  It’s eating at the end of the day.  Would you or I like to be covered whilst eating?  Not really!
  • Expressing milk. This was amazing the first 3 months.  Had perfected when to express and to give JJ the expressed milk.  But then it belly’s up.  JJ’s feeding pattern had changed to such regular close intervals that there was no time to express.  Unfortunately, it’s not as quick as press a button and a minute later the milk flows into a bottle easily and quickly.  This then led to JJ being apart from the bottle.  He became unfamiliar with the bottle that he just wasn’t interested in taking it anymore.  No getaways for me then…
  • Breastfeeding There have been so many times I wanted to give up. I never realised actually how hard it would be.  There has been forever sofa or chair time feeding, any time of the day.  Comfort feeding, clamping, pulling, twisting.  Feeding in the dark, feeding whilst walking in carrier, in the car – well almost anywhere! There’s no real routine to feeding.  If you can imagine, we all have a nibble, a snack, a feast, a drink.  Sometimes we are hungry and sometimes we are not.  That is what breastfeeding is, any hungriness and thirstiness that JJ requires, day and all through the night.  I’ve kept going and very proud!  .
  • Frequent pram walking. It’s great for babies to take in that fresh air, but does shopping with JJ in trolley count towards it? Does walking to a class count as well? Seeing those eyes turn sleepy is beautiful when he was younger.  Now those eyes are so intrigued in what the environment has to offer.  He’s so keen to see what everything is. As much as I adore taking JJ for a stroll, it’s not every day.  I will strive to do more.
  • Healthy eating. I laugh at this as I thought I would have further nutrients and be all health-ier! To be honest, I did extremely well in pregnancy but now I want that cookie, chocolate, cake another cookie! I will eat anything! At least JJ will get a taste of all sorts of food.
  • Still go to restaurants. Instead of going to any restaurants on the whim, now I have to consider is it pram friendly? No more are the days going to Michelin restaurants or packed pubs.  But I’m happy I eat out! I’m happy JJ is great at restaurants. I have mastered the skill of feeding him and feeding myself at the same time.    Never thought I would see that kind of multi-tasking along with talking to company.
  • Social life. Social life is JJ plus I. I am totally lucky that my close friends haven’t stopped wanting to hang out.  They have been truly amazing.  I can’t obviously ding crazy night outs which I do miss loads, but I’m sure I wouldn’t be able to handle them.  It also helps saving on money. I do have to think if the atmosphere is baby friendly when meeting friends but it all works out.  I know cinema isn’t really social but I MISS watching the latest movies on the big screen, with sweet popcorn! I do miss being readily available to go out anywhere and anytime.


  • Toys I said to myself I wouldn’t buy much toys until it is right for him.  Surprise surprise, I have kept to this!  Only the necessities.  But instead of saving the money, it has gone to clothes.  JJ has a better wardrobe selection than me. He’s only going to grow out of them quickly. Grrrr.
  • Becoming a family I really try to ensure we have family time. That’s us three, JJ, Martin and I going out or just playing together.   Spending quality time not in front of the TV.  These are just precious moments I truly love!  When there’s no chores and just pure enjoyment.  Martins help is truly undeniable a load off my shoulder  – and seeing him when he does the poo nappies – a cracker!
  • Meeting other mummies. Without NCT group, and Babycentre group that I truly rely on, the days can be so lonely.  JJ can’t talk yet, and having adult conversations and knowing others are going through similar events is so reassuring.  I cannot comprehend what it would be without them.  You keep me sane!
  • Becoming my mummy. Garden trips, and further sightseeing. I am definitely becoming my mummy. I’m trying to recall how mum would treat me, and what she would do in certain scenarios.  I now ask a lot of advice.  Obviously some are outdated, and she is learning from me!    Love mum!


  • Spare time. Why on earth did I think I would have loads of spare time?  Maternity leave is not a holiday! I am not in an office or out in meetings, nor getting great pay with lunch.  Being mummy is 24/7.  I don’t get a spare time to have a break or have me time.  My time is playing, feeding, calming, soothing, changing nappies, teaching, and encouraging JJ.  Then if there is spare time, stuff something in my mouth to eat, clean the clothes, clean the flat. Can I fit in a shower? Wash my hair? Do I have 10 minutes to take a nap? I don’t have a clue what’s going on in the world unless someone sends me a quick whatsapp message.  TV? Its just on in the background as white noise.   Yet somehow I manage to get things done.  Maybe not in the time I want, but eventually things do get done.
  • Pacifer . . Its meant to help with SIDs but I said I would not give one – only because I can’t be assed to ween JJ off it.  Guess what?  I tried to hoping JJ could use it to sooth himself to sleep easily, so I could capture some zzzzzzzz.  It didn’t work !
  • Sleep for me. Who the hell said sleep when baby sleeps? That is the time to do the chores, fit in 5 minute shower, sort the baby bag, arrange paperwork, skim through advice on being a new mummy, searching for tips and tricks.  Oh and on the subject of sleep – my gosh! During pregnancy I didn’t sleep well.  Now this is a new world! Waking up every hour to feed or be a soother. I am a zombie. Those long shut eye exist no more.  They have faded far away, leaving heavy eye bags. I’ve only had very few naps with JJ during the day past these 5 months…if only they could be more!
  • Beauty – Beauty regime dissipated. There’s muff, lack of nail varnish, bun hair, hardly any make up.  Ahahahahahahahahaha!  That’s all I got to say.  Poor Martin!  It’s an effort to make an effort but I do try sometimes!


  • Travel I can’t just park anywhere anymore.  I have to make sure the back side door opens so I can get JJ out.  And the same for the boot.  I need to get the pram out.  Long gone are those days fitting in the last tight space.  Going to London on public transport? Blimey! Word of advice: Plan your route.  Make sure there are lifts at stations.  Try not to go on peak times.  Some people will help you get on a train, bus, escalator but others will disregard you.  If I could slap them across the cheek I would! 7 hour drive to the Lake District? That consists of frequent stops, and feeds and packing the car with everything.  It doesn’t take 7 hours now.  It’s much longer!  Ahahahaha!
  • Carriers Whoever stole the idea of carriers/slings from material being wrapped fround the body from the third world, well boy are you making money!  These are just amazing!  JJ seems to be content being next to me.  Don’t have to lug around the pram all the time
  • Night routine. I’m not sure why the emphasis is so high that lil bubbas must sleep through the night.  They are babies!  They still have a lot to learn.  I’ve given up on focusing on a real night routine and trying to keep JJ sleep peacefully throughout the night.  He will wake normally because he is generally hungry.  He will wake because he wants to be next to me.  All I can do is encourage sleep but not be fixated on a routine.  When he is ready he will sleep longer than hour or 2.  He has done so before and he will do again.  For now, co-sleeping is a beautiful and easy way of sleeping.  He loves it. I love it.


  • HobbiesI can only try to do them, cycle, read comics, keep up with blog and so forth. Rarely occurs.  One day I’ll get back into it all and travel the world.  Hopefully some of these will be shared with JJ.


The good, the bad and the ugly.  No matter how hard things can be. I soldier on. Through the hardships of losing my dad, JJ is my saviour. Seeing that smile, hearing that innocent laughter and witnessing his milestones, gives such a heartfelt delight.  Every struggle is totally worth it.  I’ve learnt in these short months that I need to be flexible and open to anything.  I’ve learnt I can be a mummy my own way, and still somehow incorporate my values and still be me, Laila.  I wouldn’t change anything.  

The Second Month


Attending a christening.  Note to oneself that hours preparation on everything is required. Makeup and hair is not 5mins anymore.


It’s mummy and son time finally! In between the feedings, crying, nappy changing, and cleaning I manage to fit our time. Love it when he looks at me. Next mission: Just need to start learning nursery rhymes o singing lessons. I’m so rubbish and hate hearing my own voice attempting to sing.


The bonding of Cousin Elvis and JJ begins. Oh gosh, they will both be troublesome together when they grow up. Looking forward to it.


The “Really, do I have to go?” look. Really, that starts already???


I’m trying to encourage tummy time but instead JJ wants to feed on the pillow.


“Mummy, you are going to dress me with this top and pants? I am shocked!” Those days when the child doesn’t like what you pick to wear will be here soon I’m sure.


Batman and leg warmers. I just love it!


“Mummy as I have jaundice I am going to soak up this sun. Leave me in peace whilst I relax and top up my tan.”


Meeting girlfriend to be Phoebe and future mummy in law Claire. Coffee, mummies and more babies time is much needed.


Auntie Jey and Uncle Jel meet JJ for the first time.


JJ hanging out with Daddy, Alex and Bradley


Quality time with Mummy and Daddy in Hampton Court. We need more and more. Love these moments!


“I just want to sleep. I’m fed up of meeting people.”. Rachael meeting JJ.


“Just gazing at the ceiling”


“Please mummy. No more tummy time!


After tummy time, JJ is knocked out and cosy with Daddy.


“I’m so tired of being kissed by people” Claire meeting JJ.


Daddy and son time. Yay!


Meeting Auntie Chona


“Seriously, meeting more people? Too many people!” Meeting Auntie Janez


JJ met alot of ladies, Baby Centre Group and their adorable little daughters earlier today and now is overwhelmed and exhausted!


Just about to go into milk coma!


JJ pee/fart/poo face! I use to think this was feed me face but was so wrong!


“Love Yoda. Just not the hat”


Meeting my God brother Nico. Whoop Whoop.


Meeting Ninang Bernedette and Ninong Paul


“I’m Superman!”


Brushing my teeth with JJ in carrier. Enough said


Meeting Auntie Louizza at night time


Missing Daddy.



Practicing head up and sitting down. Just toooooo cute!


Theo meeting JJ. He said he’s not good with babies but look at them!


Kate is a natural looking after kids


Letting a fart rip!


Milk coma again. Lol ust sleeping over me.